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This is just a meer sound check on the Steinway in a Schmitt Music Store.

Note: My rhythm is extremely poor on this. Goes to show what 2 years can do when you do not touch piano --- Yeah it's not very good.

This is the only stable piece I was able to play from beginning to end of all those that I recorded on this account.

However, the sound this thing produces is absolutely amazing and I enjoyed every little bit of it. The bass has incredible power to it. Just awesome! The only thing that was an annoyance was the quality - the faster you play the more muddle the sound gets. I am use to using heavy petal with my piano. This piano you have to be careful about it.

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So, you ask, Travis what in the world you doing in a music store? Aren't you in game dev? Actually I dropped, and thinking about a graphic design degree. You see, I have the tendency to forget a lot, and the further I got into school the more noticeable it became. I mean I can't even find my way around without having to remind myself where I parked my car. I don't need this stress. It's stupid stuff like this because I forget things. And this problem wasn't helping me along in school either.

So, is that all? Nope. The number one reason why I am here playing, and recording again is because I am at a crisis.

Right now my brain and my heart are functioning on 2 different levels now. A. Listen to parents, get a degree, and a stable well paying job. B. Do what your heart is telling you.

Ever since I got further along in school, I knew that damn piano at home, kept me from moving forward. I honestly wish I never played the damn thing. I mean I am sure I got plenty on my plate when it comes to schooling. I should already be on my 4th year in school - ready for a life time career. So screw the piano right?

But I can't though. The truth is that my heart is telling me to stick to piano.

BUT WHY TRAVIS WHY!

I can't compose. I can't perform. And I can't teach. It's absolutely ridiculous I know but I cannot accept the fact that I am going to lose it. I mean I hardly play now, but I know I will be unable to keep it up if I take my career too seriously. I already lost quite a bit of it, and it's pretty disappointing.

My parents are not too happy with me dropping school at all - they lose health insurance on me when I drop.

They think I want to go back and insist I just major in something, but I always go to school thinking I have something realizing later that I don't. So this cycle will always continue...

I feel that I belong with music. I mean, I definitely do not want to be in the spotlight, aiming for a music degree... maybe that's why I was very brutal on myself for constantly playing, because I was digging further into something I never intentionally wanted to do. How could you call this a musician? Well, I never said I was one; I am just a man who still wants to play.

I realized this... I just want to be on the sidelines. Maybe I can't live up to my potential, but being in a music store will always remind me, hey kid at least you tried. And I am pretty happy with that decision to make that my goal in life. It sounds like it will definitely beat any of those jobs I ever had in the past...

I just currently want to play. No matter how spoiled it sounds. It might not be a living, but I know I am living because I will have the time in the world to play.

I got to be happy with my job. And my job is to keep myself happy.

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